Oh, Zita. I absolutely can’t even imagine going through what you did. I understand it, and I can’t imagine the horribleness of having to make a decision that has no good outcome. How can you possibly choose between those babies and yourself and your older children? It’s an impossible decision you were forced to make. I’m so glad you got out, that you’ve built a life for yourself and your daughter. I hope that you are able to forgive yourself. You did the very best you could, and that is enough.